Feb 20 2010

a nap

a ceiling
and a sinking feeling
that the purple around the sun
is imaginary,
and, actually, the night road is
dark circles around my eyes.
my smile lies;
it likes lying.
a petrifying thought of fakeness,
and that grapes
were never sweet or sour.
it was simply one hour of a nap
when i dreamt of a Huysum canvas
yesterday on a lonely evening
or the day before;
all i am
is tired feet on a cold floor
and purring of a warm shower,
sour grapes
and my smile that fakes
happiness


May 10 2009

it’s easier to lie

warped nerves and blisters
seasonal twisters
shoots and pale blooms
is what consumes
the sparks behind the lowered lashes.
your sight dashes,
runs over my face.
some grace
allows for a masking smile.
examine my face for a while,
ignore the alarm.
no harm
may be be done
to the naive.


May 29 2008

witch: nothing at stake

for better for worse…
with gnarled fingers
cat eyes reflecting the blue
a stake through the undying
finally calming
when you
walk surely to the haystacks.
there in shade rest
peacefully
bury your hands in hair
even if it is all a mere
mirage
and safety is staring upwards
elsewhere.


Jan 1 2008

hibiscus

not a hibiscus, but one from the malvaceae family

every twig tenses up
and produces a bud
single glimpse of a spine
through the dressy long cut
follow through with the shoots
shaded red flashy meat
bursts, unfolds
forces out
the insides
incomplete
nonsense phrase
breaks the stiffness of air
he runs through the glass door
after the red dress’s flare

cheesy, i know.


Dec 2 2007

an old tiger

an old tiger drags himself out of the river
as i sit down on the stairs
to fancy that sunset of golden stripes,
wet and faded.
we breathe heavily.

at daybreak each blade reflects the sunrise.
smile and serenity awaken first,
sending a soft push to my chest,
”come on, now!”
i brush my hair thinking of the morning light,
tasting the cream from the sunrise
melting in my mouth
down my throat,
flowing into my stomach to
transfigure and
fill the gaps between my blood cells
with gentleness. 

when i step amongst the others,
i search for it,
and the sunlight awaits for me there.
he leans over and through two layers of glass
his sun drips onto me, runs down my cheeks,
tickles.
i drink it, rub it into my skin,
i soak my hair in its sweetness
to take with me all that i can carry,
to sit down then on the stairs,
and play with it, evaporating, melting away fast.
ahh why so fast?

dejected, in sand and silt,
the tiger falls over, his sides rising and falling
to the rhythm of the weary meter inside.
quieter and quieter becomes his breath,
entirely calming down
with the last vanishing sunray.


hahahha. it was brought to my attention that this is horridly “phallic imagery.” well, now read the poem again and actually see, sense what i am telling you about: sunset, a wet tired tiger; now jump in time to sunrise, waking up in a sunny room, warmth of being in a good mood, searching for whoever brings sun to your life, and, finally, feel the tired end of the day, which is the old tiger himself, blended in one with the sun and the narrator. i bet your initial impression was not boring either tho :)